Saturday, July 4, 2009

The Postal Service - Give Up - Track 3

It was intensely hot even with the electrec fan set to max last night.

Restless... sweating...

I woke up at 5:55am and panicked.

Shit... have to get up for work in two hours
.

Set my alarm. Go back to sleep.

Alarm goes off. Look at phone. It's Saturday.

Zzzzzz...

Sunday, June 28, 2009

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Umaga

He had little to say, for all the words in the dictionary could not express the feeling he got from warmth of her scent. This scent's fine traces were only detectable when the proximity of their faces caused his eyes to refocus like a macro lens. He stroked her hair gently like guitarist playing a soft ballad. He studied her face, memorizing every curve, every nook and cranny. Her eyes, her nose, her cheekbones, her lips...

Intoxicating, he thought. To me this is heaven.

The morning sun peeked through the window and illuminated her face and gave it a glow like no other. Sleeping... beauty...

Her eyes opened slightly... and at the sight of him, she thrust her arms out as if she were in a pool drowning and hung on to him for dear life.

Baby... I love you.

Baby... I love you too. Meme ka lang. Meme...

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

*hatsoooo*

Mah beybeh ain't feelin' too well today :(



Hope this makes you smile.

<3

*hug*

Saturday, June 20, 2009

the perfect drug

i woke up

alone

shaking slightly

i guess this is what an addict feels?

but my drug involves

squirmy sleep
HHPSSP
tindahan ni ate kapampangan
dangerous cliffs in slippery sandals
100 euro train ticket fine
stormy weather on a tropical beach
hammock and cow dung
pork and shrimp paste
starbucks and a banana muffin
smudgy make up
rainy afternoon at the place you grew up in
surprise book giving
red ribbon palabok

vieni da me

<3

Sunday, June 14, 2009

... but who's counting?

30 days
1675 peechurs
4 italian cities
20 euro beer and lobster feesh
7 different beds
6 longganisa breakfasts
10 minutes to the station
3 missed flights
2 hotels
100 euro penalty
57892 hugs and kisses
3 words



i love you

<3

Thursday, March 26, 2009

In tents!

This morning sucked.

So much work partly due to the incompetence and laziness of certain co-workers. Though I will not cast the first stone, since I have been prone to laziness myself. Actually, it's more of an apathetic feeling toward work. Which leads to laziness.

The afternoon didn't get much better, since I was scrambling to finish as much work as possible because I was taking the afternoon off to check on the status of my papers here in Italy. This would entail a 15 minute subway ride, followed by a 1 hour long inter-city train, ending with a 20 minute walk, more or less.

I finally made it to the boonies, where my papers are currently being processed (held hostage). Releasing was from 2:30pm to 4:00pm. It was 3:35pm so I made it there in time... but there was a buttload of people. I made my way to the front, asked about the status of my papers, and was greeted by the bluest pair of eyes I've ever seen on a policeman. I admit, homeboy was medyo nakakabakla. But once he started talking, oh man did I just want to knock his teeth out. Ang sungit nya, at ang bastos pa. He said if my name wasn't on the list, then the papers aren't ready. I had an appointment last June 2008, and they told me to come back around September because it should be ready by then. I checked the website regularly for any updates, but there weren't any. So going there in person seemed like the best way to get a real update, since their website isn't updated religiously. I tried explaining this to Mickey Blue Eyes but he didn't care. I said, "It has been almost a year since my renewal and it's still not ready?" And he just gave me this look as if to say, "Yeah... we move slow. I don't really care. I'm getting my eyebrows waxed later." There was no point in arguing with this guy any further, so I left.

The pace of my walk screamed defeat. I sought refuge in this tiny 'mall' that was on the way back to the train station. I bought myself a late lunch comfort pizza, pulled out my phone and tried to make a call to a comforting voice, but my battery was dead. Great. At least the pizza was good.

I then hopped on a train and made a stop at our old house. I need to visit our old landlord to pick up the unclaimed house deposit from last year. It was odd... the 10 minute walk from station to the house was part of my daily routine for years. Today was the first time in almost a year since I walked this path. Comforting, yet sad. I finally reach the house and spoke to the landlord for quite a bit. Madaldal ang matandang iyon. But it's okay; I get to practice my Italian. After calculating the bills and other expenses, it seems as if we ended up owing them money! Baliktad! I came to claim the remainder of the deposit, but apparently the leftover expenses were bigger than the deposit... so now we owe them 109 euro. She said we could pay anytime. How am I going to explain this to my parents? I'm sure they're not going to pay. The charges were kinda ridiculous. 300 euro for a damaged couch? Come on, it was an antique. Hmm... maybe that's why it cost that much. I'm thinking though, we lived in that house for almost 6 years... couldn't they just give us a break and let the 109 euro slide? In any case, I don't think my parents are going to pay, and there's no penalty if we don't pay anyway. It was just sad that they didn't take into consideration the number of years we stayed. Haaay.

/end rant

So yeah... up until that point, things weren't going so well. I took comfort in a phone call that accompanied me all the way to my destination. Thank you ♥ I was also listening to my iPod which I haven't used in a long time. My companion through countless train rides. I was inspecting it again as if it were the first time I had seen it. I was pleasantly suprised to find this wedged in the secret pocket of my iPod case:






I remember slipping this in the pocket a few months ago :)

As soon as I arrived in Milan, I decided to take a long walk. I passed through Castelo Sforzesco and sat by the fountain for a few minutes. Nag muni-muni. Then I continued my walk. My feet led me to a certain store where I made an unexpected purchase that made my day a whole lot better. Guess what it was?

Shoes? No.

Ice cream? No.

Pornography? No, no, no.

I bought this:



Siret na?

*giggle*






♥

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

I see the nuns are gay!

Sometimes I wish I were Indian...

Sunday, February 15, 2009

Count

Nagbibilang na naman ako.

66 days.

Makes me do a reverse count.

What happened 66 days ago?

I'll check my picture folder for a clue.



That's the day I took this photo.

Malapit na, babe.

<3

Friday, February 13, 2009

Friday, February 6, 2009

Yes, I've milked a cow

Complete with (some) pictures. :D

(bold the ones you’ve done)

01. Bought everyone in the bar a drink
02. Swam with dolphins


03. Climbed a mountain
04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
05. Been inside the Great Pyramid
06. Held a tarantula
07. Taken a candlelit bath with someone
08. Said “I love you” and meant it


09. Hugged a tree
10. Bungee jumped


11. Visited Paris
12. Watched a lightning storm at sea
13. Stayed up all night long and saw the sun rise
14. Seen the Northern Lights
15. Gone to a huge sports game
16. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
17. Grown and eaten your own vegetables
18. Touched an iceberg


19. Slept under the stars
20. Changed a baby’s diaper
21. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
22. Watched a meteor shower
23. Gotten drunk on champagne
24. Given more than you can afford to charity
25. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
26. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
27. Had a food fight
28. Bet on a wining horse
29. Asked out a stranger
30. Had a snowball fight
31. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
32. Held a lamb (do lamb chops count?)
33. Seen a total eclipse
34. Ridden a roller coaster
35. Hit a home run
36. Danced like a fool and didn’t care who was looking
37. Adopted an accent for an entire day
38. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
39. Had two hard drives for your computer
40. Visited all 50 states
41. Taken care of someone who was drunk
42. Had/ have amazing friends
43. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
44. Watched whales
45. Stolen a sign


46. Backpacked in Europe
47. Taken a road-trip
48. Gone rock climbing
49. Taken a midnight walk on the beach
50. Gone sky diving
51. Visited Ireland
52. Been heartbroken longer than you were actually in love
53. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger’s table and had a meal with them
54. Visited Japan


55. Milked a cow (!)
56. Alphabetized your CDs
57. Pretended to be a superhero
58. Sung karaoke
59. Lounged around in bed all day
60. Played touch football
61. Gone scuba diving
62. Kissed in the rain
63. Played in the mud
64. Played in the rain
65. Gone to a drive-in theatre
66. Visited the Great Wall of China
67. Started a business
68. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken


69. Toured ancient sites
70. Had an unusual animal for a pet
71. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight
72. Gotten married
73. Been in a movie
74. Crashed a party
75. Gotten divorced
76. Gone without food for 5 days
77. Made cookies from scratch
78. Won first prize in a costume contest
79. Ridden a gondola in Venice
80. Gotten a tattoo
81. Rafted the Snake River
82. Been on a television news program as an “expert”
83. Gotten flowers for no reason
84. Performed on stage
85. Been to Las Vegas
86. Recorded music <3
87. Eaten shark
88. Kissed on the first date
89. Gone to Thailand
90. Bought a house
91. Been in a combat zone
92. Buried one/both of your parents
93. Been on a cruise ship
94. Spoken more than one language fluently
95. Performed in Rocky Horror
96. Raised children
97. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
98. Passed out cold
99. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
100. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
101. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
102. Sang loudly in the car, and didn’t stop when you knew someone was looking
103. Had plastic surgery
104. Survived an accident that you shouldn’t have survived
105. Wrote articles for a large publication
106. Lost over 100 pounds
107. Held someone while they were having a flashback
108. Piloted an airplane
109. Touched a stingray
110. Broken someone’s heart
111. Helped an animal give birth
112. Won money on a TV game show
113. Broken a bone
114. Gone on a photo safari
115. Had a facial part pierced other than your ears
116. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol (does paintball count?)
117. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild (trippy)
118. Ridden a horse
119. Had major surgery
120. Had a snake as a pet
121. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
122. Slept for 30 hours in a 48 hour period
123. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. States
124. Visited all 7 continents
125. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
126. Eaten kangaroo meat
127. Eaten sushi
128. Went on a spontaneous trip
129. Changed someone’s mind about something you care deeply about
130. Gone back to school
131. Parasailed
132. Touched a cockroach
133. Eaten fried green tomatoes
134. Read The Iliad and The Odyssey
135. Selected one “important” author who you missed in school, and read
136. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
137. Skipped all your school reunions
138. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
139. Been elected to public office
140. Written your own computer language
141. Thought to yourself that you’re living your dream
142. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
143. Built your own PC from parts
144. Ghost hunting
145. Had a booth at a street fair
146. Dyed your hair
147. Been a DJ
148. Shaved your head
149. Caused a car accident
150. Saved someone’s life

Monday, January 26, 2009

Hindi pa rin kayo naduduling...

I told you I'd find your doppelgängers...

First we have my dearest Banana whom I love so dearly:




Then we have my favorite Lolabetlog... whose doppelgänger unfortunately cannot be completely revealed since this blog is PG-13:



And last but not least, the newest addition to our blogging kuh-raaay-zee-ness... Lauro aka. Dr. Evil (in Tagalog, Doktor Masamang Iniisip)



Hee hee :D

*EDIT*

At the request of lola and the rest of the world, here's what we all want to see:



Lauro: Ang Hari ng Vienna Sausage!

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Plans



I like to scribble. I like to write notes. Thoughts. Plans. Grocery lists. To do lists. To bring lists. Whatever. Whenever. They are usually illegible to anyone other than myself, and I'd like to keep it that way. If you can decipher the notes I write, then kudos to you.

It's been a while since I've scribbled. And I've got good reason to scribble again. There are things to see and places to go that I want to experience with you. Scribbling messily ironically clears things up for me. The future looks bright on this cold and rainy day. My mornings spent recovering from hangovers caused by my sweet sweet dreams. Isang buwan na lang, babe.

I don't normally look forward to my birthday, nor do I usually celebrate it in a big way. Last year, I remember being at the office until 7:30pm and being pissed at my officemates for leaving me there with that workload. Assholes. The year before that, I was slightly depressed, and I stayed home and slept in. The year before that, I just had sushi for dinner with my parents. The last time I "partied" was in 2002, when I threw a party for the first (and last) time.

This year will be different. It doesn't matter where we go or what we do, basta kasama kita, masaya na ako. I'll have to borrow a quote from you: "OK na ako sa McDo." That does remind me though of this one birthday... I think it was my 9th or 10th birthday. We ate lunch at the McDonalds at Harrison Plaza. I was so happy. It's funny... when you're a kid, these small things make you so unbelievably happy. Diba? Like when your mom surprises you with a pink Mickey Mouse watch. Happiness. I want to take that feeling back. I know it might be a bit late to start New Year's resolutions, but why not start anyway? So I propose for everyone to find happiness in tiny everyday things like:

- The kumot that keeps you warm as you sleep at night.
- The seat you're sitting in. Is it comfortable? Yes? Savour it.
- Taking a nice hot shower.
- Singing along to a good song.
- Discovering new (or old) good music.
- Morning coffee.
- Anticipation.
- When your phone rings and it's <3

Friday, January 23, 2009

*Smile*

Who here used to read Archie comics?

*raises hand*

Remember these cheesy ads? It worked though... I always wondered what a Twinkie tasted like. I finally got to try one a few years ago. I did not like it. Oh well, the comics were funny.

wtf?!

I was going to post something else, but after reading this while surfing around the 'net earlier, I couldn't help but crack up. I have to share this with you:

"Deeper Understanding of the Universe | Reviewer: Anonymous | 12/9/08

I really miss my gerbil fluff-puff. It wasn't too long ago that I was playing door basketball, when I got frustrated and threw him really hard at the wall. It was so sad. I cherish those moments I had with him. I miss you, fluff puff."

Sunday, January 18, 2009

Tagged again :)

1. The love of my life:
2. Where you and I met:
3. Take a stab at my middle name:
4. How long you've known me:
5. The last time that we saw each other:
6. Would I ever go sky diving?
7. Your first impression of me upon meeting me/seeing me:
8. Am I funny?
9. My favorite type of music:
10. Can I sing?
11. The best feature about me:
12. What do I want to do more than anything?
13. What is one thing that you think I should do?
14. Do I have any special talents? If so, what are they?
15. Would you call me preppy, average, sporty, punk, hippie, glam, nerdy, snobby, or something else?
16. Have you ever hugged me?
17. My favorite food:
18. Have you ever had a crush on me?
19. If there was one good nickname for me, it would be:
20. Your favorite memory of me:
21. If you and I were stranded on a desert island, I would bring:
22. Do I believe in God?
23. Who is my best friend?
24. Weirdest thing I've ever said:
25. Something only you & I would get:
26. What's the best thing about me?
27. What's the worst thing about me?
28. Will you re post this so I can fill this out for you?

Friday, January 16, 2009

Hindi kayo naduduling...

On the way to work this morning, I crossed paths with a man who looked exactly like one of my classmates from high school. The resemblance was uncanny. But I'm sure it wasn't him since my former classmate is still in Canada; he's one of my friends on Facebook.

It made me think... do we all have a doppelgänger?

Hot dawg, I think I found mine!



My dears... I'll find yours soon and post them here too. Just you wait. :D

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Flatyfus?

Lola tagged me. Lezdudiz. :)

1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

I fell out of my seat for this one...

Is spontaneous human combustion possible?

I think so.

All you need to say is, "Wait lang, don't move."

<3

Monday, January 5, 2009

Random thoughts as we kick off 2009

I felt the loneliness slowly settle in as the plane inched towards the Eternal City.

Unfortunately, Jollibee delivery doesn't go all the way here. A Chickenjoy meal would hit the spot right now.

Mom's made a good point when she said, "Anak, remember... you can come home anytime."

The last words my dad said to me before I left Manila still echo in my head... I can't believe he said that. He usually avoids topics like that. It was shocking... in a good way. Those words will remain a secret... for now. :)

I'm really thankful for all my friends, new and old, who came out to see me while I was in Manila.

I'm especially thankful that I was able to spend a lot of time with my family last month. I also spent Christmas and New Year's with the people I love, complete with a fireworks display that was a first for me. <3

My heart is being tugged in different directions by feelings of sadness, anticipation, hope, missing you, past, present, future, loss, confusion, understanding, epiphanies, apathy, hunger, stress, happiness, love, and more as I look longingly at the computer screen.

If I stare at this map long enough, will it blink? :)